Happy Birthday Daddy!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABYYYYY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!! <3 Happy Birthday baby! Im so happy we were FINALLY able to spend a birthday together!!! :) Well, today was my husbands 21st birthday and we went to Knotts Berry Farm and had a blast :) We even took those old pics haha. Im worn out and cant believe predeployment week is over :/ Going to spend as much time as i can with my baby and smother him with love and kisses until he leaves!!! Predeployment pics tomorrow!! :D

It's never going to be my time...

One day I hope to become a mother. I sit on the sidelines and literally all my best friends are poppping out kids. Dont get me wrong, im SUPER happy for them, but at the same time I wish I could be a momma... I dont understand what we are doing wrong! We are timing our ovulation dates, im on prenatals, we got lab tests done.. we are okay! Im just sooo confused!! :/ Just one baby and I would be okay :) We just want to be parents and love our baby! Is that too much to ask? :(

I realize i dont have a best friend...

Today was a really great day with my love. We went fishing and had a BLAST!!! He took me out on a date to my favorite taco shop and then went bowling :) After that, we talked about our upcoming weekend to Vegas!!
Well, I have many best friends.. They live far but they are my best friends. I really truely dont have that ONE best friend anymore where I talked to 24/7 and texted all day long, and am able to act my stupid self around without having to worry if i offend them or not. I miss that soo freaking much. I had a friend like that throughout high school and i cant believe i messed that up.. She knew everything about me and i knew everything about her. she knows secrets of mine and i know secrets of hers that we are taking to our grave. Yet even though i have no way of contacting her or finding out any information, i am still trying to find her. Maybe she is still the same and we can be best friends again if she forgives me for what we have been through..
Some of yall are reading this thinking "well isnt your husband your best friend???".. the answer is, "well DUHHH my husband is my best friend!!" But every girl needs a woman best friend as well, ya know.. The man can only take so much and wont understand as much as a woman.
Well anyways, we are going to Vegas on Friday-Saturday and Joey told me to pick a few friends out to bring with us.. Turns out, i have NOBODY!!! Yeah there are a few 'friends' that i could invite but i dont wanna have to spend my time worrying if im going to offend them or say something that they wont like. I need a best friend! im going crazy over here.. like hardcore and im sitting here crying because i feel like i dont have that special friend to talk to about anything. Yeah i text friends throughout the day but its not the same. im hurt and realize, i dont have a best friend... </3

My Hunni Sings this song to me :)
Im sooo gonna miss this when he's gone :/