7.5 weeks without you.. Seems like you just got on those buses yesterday, but time is flying :)
I thank God for allowing me to be sane! I just miss my husband so much. I talk to him on the phone and I cry silently because I dont want him to hear me crying. I dont want his morale to lower.
Everyone asks, "Are you ok?!" My answer.. My honest answer... is no. Im NOT okay. So please stop fucking asking me if im okay. "But you knew whatyou guys were both getting into". Well no shit dumbass, i know we knew what we were getting into.. Its just hard. I never ever am one to complain but damn people are getting on my last fucking nerve and i feel like i am going to explode! Ive dealt with liars, fakes, bitches, whores etc.. and its only been a month!!! This deployment is really making me see people for who they truly are. Im not saying to come over all the time and always ask if im ok, but hey... a quick text saying "hey are you alive?" will make me fucking happy. Is that too much to ask for from my "Best friends".. Gah.. -_- My best friends have seriously had my back. Melinda has been my numero uno supporter and im soooooo freaking grateful to have had her in my life for the past almost 10 years :) Also, im very grateful for breann. I swear she is always asking if im ok and if i ever wanna hang out. And my Cee Cee Bee all the way out in Hawaii! I love you bee, just thank you so much for always texting me every night to see how im doing!! Your man is coming home soon babygirl!! So excited for you!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Anywho, yeah this deployment is also making me fall in love all over with my husband. Like how we were when we first started dating! Only talking through emails and phone calls :) So cute. I love him with all my heart i swear i cant wait for these holidays to be over with!!!!!!!
Welp, bedtime!
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